Looking good.

All is well! I had bloodwork and another ultrasound (follie check) today. I have lots of them in there! They are growing nicely on both sides. I keep up the Follistim 200iu and Lupron 20, through the weekend. Next check is on Monday morning and he is estimating retrieval on Wednesday or Thursday. We are excited and ready to do this again.

I am waking up with a new attitude this morning. Grow follies, grow! :)

Oh my.

I have a heavy sadness tonight. Can we say 'depression'? I don't know if it's the Lupron? Or just the fact that we have to endure this crap. I would give ANYTHING to be a mommy. I know I am not alone. But I feel deep in the pits of sadness, and I feel that noone could possibly understand.

Looking good

So far - so good. Second estradiol level was 'good'. And I didn't ask what the # was. It's easier to just go with 'good'! I am on track and keeping up with the Lupron 20 for the next three nights and Follistim goes down to 250. My next ultrasound/follie check and bloodwork will be Friday, another Monday. And then possible retrieval surgery days are next Wed/Thur/Fri!!

It's going by SO FAST!

Feeling selfish.

Babies, babies, everywhere!! It seems there are pregnant women and babies surrounding me these days. And I am OKAY with that. It seems to be an inspiration and I would like their bellies to send me some good baby vibes!!

Today I was chatting with my boss about the IVF cycle. And we discussed in depth, the multiple challenges we have in the fertility department. And it was the FIRST time I have felt that this really is my last shot at bliss. I know we can try a donor cycle and we can adopt. But this feels like my last chance to make some of our very own embryos. It may sound selfish to want my very own mix of Peter and my DNA. And I know I would be MADLY in love with an adopted baby or an adopted embryo. But for now, this is what I want.

Falling back!

I did the Follistim and Lupron injections at 8PM last night. I am supposed to do these at the same time every night (every 24 hours). And at 7PM tonight - I looked at the clock on the wall that hadn't been changed off of Daylight Savings Time. I saw that it said 8:00 and then it hit me!! My gosh - we needed to switch to 7PM shots or we would be off an hour. Duh.

I had another BIG dose of Follistim and a double dose of Lupron. My bruises are adding up already. But we are in good spirits and still smiling.

We had chinese food for dinner tonight.

Pete's fortune = A dream you have will come true.

Ann's fortune = You will get what your heart desires.

And we're off...

I started my injections last night - in my Tim Tebow costume! :) They were much bigger doses than I used last cycle. I indulged in some wine at a party last night, and now I am done. I am focused. And I can't wait to breeze through and watch these follies grow!